Breathe. He's in control :)

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.” –Ecclesiastes 3:1

There are times when I couldn’t help but be impatient. If things don’t usually easily go my way or if I don’t immediately get what I want, I often become annoyed or irritated. I feel that there’s a need to quickly solve my worries and appease my eager mind—there are times when I want things to just easily go my way the way I want it to.

But then, I am being reminded that there is indeed a perfect time for everything. Whenever I ask for something in prayer and God does not easily respond, I can somehow lose patience and just rationalize the situation. This leads me to useless worries and needless exasperation. However, this is where the beauty of God’s unceasing love and peace come in. It is during these times when I continuously feel Him pull me closer, as if reminding me that I don’t always have to be in control, that I don’t need to have everything planned according to my will because He knows what’s best for me.

The reminder in Ecclesiastes 3:1 is truly beautiful. Just these past few weeks, I’m feeling a bit down because something that I’ve been praying for in a while was still left unanswered. Sometimes I can’t help but feel that I must do something so my prayers will immediately come true! I feel like I have to take the lead because this is my life after all.

However, it is with this need to be always in control and to always be prepared of what the future will bring that I get to experience unnecessary anxiety. But God is always there. Believe me. Just like what I mentioned earlier, it is during these circumstances when He makes me feel his presence further. Yes, I don’t have to do everything on my own and I don’t have to understand everything especially when my prayers are left unanswered. Indeed, God’s timing is perfect. In his perfect time, my prayers will be answered and I’m certain that his answer will be so much more than what I’ve been dreaming of. Sometimes I think I have everything already figured out, but then, He reminds me that, “No, my child. You have to slow down and just trust the process. I have been preparing something for you. For now, have faith that wherever you are, there’s a purpose. There are lessons you still need to learn before I give you the answer to your prayers”.

Wherever God will lead me, I’m certain that He will never leave. Whatever His answers to my prayers will be, I’m sure they will be for the best. In His perfect time, I know that the questions in my mind and the situation that I’m in right now will make sense.