My confession

Now, more than ever, I feel like I’m missing out on so much by not getting into a relationship—a realization I had after being hooked to a soap opera.

I was never the fangirl or Kpop fanatic when watching Korean dramas and listening to Kpop music became very mainstream in the country. While my friends were going nuts over FT Island, Super Junior, Boys over Flowers, Rooftop Prince etc., I was busy wondering why they were so obsessed with them. Looking at them getting all giddy and “kilig” with the stories of these cute protagonists and performers, I often found myself laughing. I just didn’t get the “fandom” thing they had—the happiness they get whenever they watch these romantic Korean dramas. I just found it too cheesy or dramatic.

However, I feel like I’m starting to get them now. Seriously, I never knew that I could get really interested in a soap opera, especially in Filipino television where stories of dramas would most likely involve a poor man/girl who will fall in love with a rich woman/guy, a woman trying to get revenge to the family who belittled her and her family, or a wife being cheated by her husband vice versa. I was never a fan of any Filipino love team. But look at me now, being gaga over the tandem of James Reid and Nadine Lustre in On the Wings of Love (OTWOL).

Yes. I believe I’m joining the bandwagon of those being called certified “OTWOListas”. Shocks. Haha. But really, watching this television show is like a breath of a fresh air for Philippine Prime Time. I’ve really had enough watching “inaapi bidas” because after a tiring day at work, I truly can’t take more drama before heading to sleep. This was actually the reason why I haven’t really watched Filipino soap operas in a long time. Now, it’s different. Really, OTWOL makes me feel that it’s like heaven whenever you are looking into the eyes of your special someone. The show makes me wish I had a James Reid I can hug and talk to at the end of the day. Jusko Lord.

It also made me realize that guys who show a little mystery or the “suplado” effect is more, as in more, attractive. Haha. Really, I have had my fair share of guys who can be too clingy, cheesy, overly concerned or showy immediately. This is why the “suplado” guys work for me eh. Just like James in the story, seeing him tear down his walls slowly gives me more desire (hala desire talaga. Hahaha) to get to know him further. I really like how he smiles to show that he’s kinikilig but still manages to make himself look cool and not desperate. Jusko Lord, iba talaga ang tama ko kay James O___O.

It’s funny that I’ve seen him several times before in the television. I even saw him during one of their mall tours for the movie Diary ng Panget. But this was the only time when I really became interested in him. Perhaps, just like what I’ve said earlier, the story of OTWOL as a breath of fresh air for Philippine primetime dramas is the ultimate reason for this sudden fandom. The directors and writers behind the soap opera truly deserve recognition for this success, especially to their love team.

Now, every night, I always have something to look forward to. After a long day at work or school, something finally gives me a smile on my face before going to sleep. I might sound really cheesy, OA, or even jeje right now (unfortunately that’s how my brother currently describes me. haha), but maybe this is what it’s like to become a fan. I admire how the two actors get to look each other in the eye and make their viewers believe that there is really something between them—that their love story is real. And yes, I envy what they have and sometimes I really think that I want to get into a relationship na rin to experience what they have. Haha. Hay James. Bakeeeeeet, bakit ako nagkaganito dahil sayo? Haha.

I believe me blogging about this finally confirms that I’m now really a fan girl. I can finally feel what my friends felt when they were going gaga over those Kpop stars or dramas. It feels great to feel this kilig over a cute story!

Until the time that my own Clark gets to find me, I’ll just continue to fantasize about being Leah to Clark in my dreams. At least I’ll have a great dose of my happy pill for the day! Haha. So yes, I’m also a certified OTWOLista, and this is my confession.